A Feast

We lounge around the room playing “Battle of the Sexes” and a quick round of “Hook-the-Visor-Over-the-Vacuum” and people I love occupy nearly every square inch of couch, chair and floor. We’re a hodgepodge of doctors, farmers, professionals, students, artists and children. There is a rhythm to our laughter and a visual feast for this mother’s eyes. Our lives intersect in this space for a moment in time so full of clarity that it rings out like a bell in my soul. Lives of meaningful enterprise converge to pause and celebrate our humanity– our connection–our family.

Tomorrow we will enter a house of worship and be stunned into silence as God pours out His glory and grace on men–young and old–as they stand. He beams His pleasure, “These are my men.” We walk away full. The emotional and spiritual response spills into the acts of preparing a meal. Shucking corn in the heat, silly conversation with a child, chopping greens grown by a husband–all meditative and graceful–become sacred in the glow of God’s presence.

Our gathered family shimmers in my heart. Our work in the world cultivates a covenant of sorts–each path important to the kingdom–deepened as we share our history in the context of our ongoing lives. Broad avenues for the expression of our faith open before each one–steeped in love and guided by the Spirit. Wildly different styles paint a rich landscape that converges in genuine community on this day. Mark expresses his gratitude to the Father for broken cycles of pain and healing on his journey–his acknowledgment a nourishing benediction. And we feast.

The next day

I am looking at Mark–husband of 30 years—asleep on the leather couch. Soundscape plays “Amazonia” by Paul Lawler, a bluesy electric guitar piece overlaid with soft techno tones—a gentle adult lullaby with an undertone of bass that nearly syncs with Mark’s light snore.

Dolly, our sweet Golden, lay on the floor below him—the sun through the window makes a bar of light across her body. Her head tilted to one side and resting on one paw—the other tucked neatly under.

The room is littered with plastic party cups left where yesterday’s baby shower guests sat perched or settled in their seats to watch Cynthia, 8 months pregnant, open gifts. A few gifts too large to fit in the car still sit like sentries overlooking the den and Mark’s Sunday nap. We will pack them with us when we head down to see them again for the holidays.

I am thinking of the laughter and chatter that filled these rooms yesterday. Women wall-to-wall from all over the city—some from Dayton—to stand behind my baby girl as she begins her journey into the world of mothering. These are women who have raised their children well. All smile widely with open faces full of hope that this baby will be well loved and brought into our community of women to be a strong woman herself.

Cynthia is grateful, but a hint of uncertainty plays around her eyes—uncertainty about motherhood in the face of so much experience surrounding her. Bits of fear creep on the edges of her voice as she speaks of the labor, delivery and the myriad of decisions to be made for a newborn—and this, coming from a doctor trained in the ways of the body. But like generations before her and the ones to come—she will arrive on the other side of being delivered—stronger, with the new name of mother. The rest of her life will be different. She will never be the same. There will be—from that moment on—a love so large it will color her entire world.

"What's your favorite..."

Last Saturday I went to Donegal Town down in the Republic of Ireland for a day with some other Magee students.

We were cute. Though none of us knew each other well, we made quite a nice grouping: two Irish, two French and two Americans.

We spent the entire day wandering around the little town. We saw the old graveyard that was also a very old abbey which had once been overtaken and used as a military outpost, as are many religious spaces here. We walked (the wrong direction at first) about 2 miles to get to a place called The Craft Village. It's an outpost for handcrafting artists to maintain a shop and keep a living.

We had two great meals: lunch at a teahouse and scones and Irish Coffee at a Pub. Because none of us knew each other that well, I contributed to conversation around the meals by asking people about themselves. Sometimes this took the form of "What's your favorite..." Apparently the others thought this was funny and they started in; "What's your favorite game? Whats your favorite color?" They laughed in good fun and looked at me for a response. I proceeded to make everyone answer the questions.

In a final attempt to joke about the "favorites" questions, the French boy, Max, asked, "What's your favorite smell." Everyone laughed. When the small chorus died down, I said, "But wait! You have to let me answer." Silence. "The smell of my mom's apple pie."

The Ultimate Comfort Food

Fall is here. The first few crisp weather mornings have passed us by here in Tennessee (better late than never) and I have an overwhelming desire to make mom's apple pie. There's something you need to know about me...I have two comfort foods that that clung to me since childhood that I turn to in times of nostalgia  and...well...just plain gluttonous indulgence. Those two foods are:

1. Grilled cheese sandwiches with tomato or potato soup
2. Mom's apple pie a la mode

I have so many memories of coming home during the autumn/winter months with the deliciously warm and inviting smells of this apple pie wafting throughout the house. It's one of those smells that makes you salivate the second it hits your nose. It's one of those smells that reminds you that Christmas filled with family, presents, snow, and no school is just around the corner. It's one of those smells that puts me home.

My first attempt at baking this pie (including the crust) was an ugly site. It was our first fall as a married couple and we had about a 1 foot square countertop available for preparation in our tiny apartment kitchen. The entire process to bake these two pies took approximately 4.5 hours. I think 2.5 were on trying to get the crust to be just the right moisture to roll and not break, but not overly moist so it becomes tough. It's a very delicate balance that one could easily mess up, but the reward is oh-so worth it.

Here's the recipe in the words of my mother. Try not to freak out by the amount of butter/crisco it calls for. Again. it's worth it.

Mom's Apple Pie
Filling

• 6-8 apples, pared, cored and thinly sliced
• 1 cup of sugar
• 2 Tablespoons flour
• 1 teaspoon cinnamon (or a tad more)
• dash nutmeg (and a wee dash of cloves if you have it)
• wee dash of salt
• 1 Tablespoon lemon juice
• Stick of butter - to be added at the end.

Slice apples, sprinkle with lemon juice. Pour sugar, spices over top and mix. Set aside while you make the crust. (Once apples are in the pan, slice the stick of butter over top.)

Pastry Crust (makes one pie -top and bottom crust) 

• 2 slightly generous cups of flour (mounded)
• 1 teaspoon salt
• generous 2/3 cup shortening (cold - I keep mine in the fridge)
• bowl of ice water

Put ice in a bowl of water and set aside.

Put the flour in a medium sized bowl and put the salt on top then use the pastry blender to mix it in.

Take about half of the generous (heaped up) 2/3 cup of cold shortening and use the pastry blender to cut the shortening into the flour until it is small granules (like grits or cornmeal) then add the remaining cold shortening and cut into the flour until there are pieces left that are about the size of peas. (These melt between layers of flour as the pie bakes and makes it flaky.)

Sprinkle the ice water over the flour/shortening mix and then use a fork to sort of toss/stir. You kind of push it to the side as it get moistened. Continue adding water to the more floury parts and gently toss/stir until the dough can be formed into two balls.

On a floured surface (countertop) place one ball and press it down by hand to form a flat circle. Then use the rolling pin to roll from center out until it is large enough to cover the pan.

Use a flat spatula to gently unstick it and fold it over in half then unstick the other half and lift it into the crust.

Roll out the other half of the crust and let it sit on the counter while you put the apples in the pan. They will have juice to pour over the top by now.

Then - and this is IMPORTANT - I have forgotten many times - cut up a stick of butter on top of the apples before you put the top crust in place.

Use a knife handle to make the scalloped edges (or thumb and pointer and pinch it). Or seal with a fork and then use a knife to cut the excess off.

Bake at 400° for 50 - 60 minutes. Sometimes I put foil around the outside edge of the crust, but not always. The crust may get too brown if you don't, but I usually don't.

Change (first post in about eight years)

Change.

For most people this word incites mild panic and excessive perspiration.

Stutters develop and the most level minded adults become

severely tongue tied.

I'm just about the opposite.

Change is a new beginning in my book.

Most of my yesterdays are not quite what I had planed

and if there's a soul on the planet who wouldn't say the

same, just I'd like to read their book.

New things bring new first tries.

And the up side to any first try is the security of excuses.

"Oh, beginners luck." or "Rome wasn't built in a day"

Either way you have an out.

You fail, that's ok, it was your first time up to bat.

You succeed and you aren't necessarily required to repeat that performance.

Easy.

Change is the ADD kids best friend.

I'm not ADD but sometimes I think my dreams are.

One day I will be an actress, and the next a writer.

I will be a volleyball star, then I will be a marathon runner.

It's not a bad thing to try new things, but does it mean anything

if instead of winning the '12 seasons of greatness' award at your

school, you've been offered the '12 Sports Attempted' prize?

Some call it running away,

Others call in branching out.

I'm not sure where I fall, but I do

truely enjoy frequent change in my life.

I would do a little experiment to test if change

has positive of negative effects on my life, but

Things would probably change too soon for me to really tell.

Living a Better Story Seminar from All Things Converge Podcast on Vimeo.

Living a Better Story

I am a 52-year-old woman who has spent the majority of my life making a home for my husband and four daughters. The courage and passion I held to through the years staying home to raise my own children looks awkward and provincial to people now. I stand up tall and declare it was not a mistake. God has honored the choice and we have suffered very little materially for it. I would do it all again. I am ferocious about this.

As my daughters have grown up I have gotten absorbed in their history, as if life happened to me without my awareness. Why, even this blog is a shared one between my daughters and I. But beneath the surface, I have been undergoing and embracing the shift in my focus away from them. My youngest daughter is now a senior in high school and I have been mulling over in my mind what kind of life I will live now that time opens up its arms to me. Since reading A Million Miles in a Thousand Years I have thought about this future in terms of “my story.”

As a child, being an artist was a big part of my identity. One of my earliest memories is drawing in church. (I still doodle through sermons—it helps me focus.) My favorite gifts to receive were always the exceptional colored pencils with rich color saturation and the deluxe paint sets. As an adult, the words naturally fall from my lips, “I’m a follower of Jesus, a wife, mother and an artist.” Over the years I developed a career that contributes to the family income and allows me to be home while I design and create—I am a graphic designer.

Although I have never entirely abandon my art (http://www.facebook.com/patty.ewing?v=photos#!/album.php?aid=17833&id=502401007) or writing, I believe my “story” in the future will be chock full of artful writing and painting.

But, here is the rub: I see myself as a nonentity—shadowy—nearly invisible.
I have gotten quite shabby in appearance. Not that I was ever a looker, but I used to have a certain sharpness to my person that I have allowed to mellow and settle. I was putting on my makeup yesterday and thought, “Why bother?” I don’t think anyone really looks at me anymore. All this without even the dignity of any real old age to accompany and account for it.

What I want more than anything and resolve to do: lose weight and repair my esteem and health WHILE I nurture my creative bent.

I know I can write (maybe not publish—but I CAN write). I will need to commit a space of time each day to write. I’ll get a laptop at some point in order to move about freely and compose in more interesting places. I can read books about writing and books about writers! (I love reading. This can now be a valid reason to read during the day: Research!) I can sign up for creative writing classes and workshops.

I know I can make art that I love and others will enjoy. I can take classes that will force me to produce and give me the physical arena in which to make a mess. I will need to turn one of the rooms into a studio fit for paint to fling about. I’ll stretch canvases and buy quantities of paint. I’ll get a small paint pad to carry about and a small quality set of paints to bring along and paint at whim.

But my undertakings will inevitably be sabotaged by my weight. So. My better story looks like this: I begin to live a healthy lifestyle while I pursue stimulating and aesthetic endeavors. I will write. I will paint. I will live an artful, satisfying season of years quickened and energized by increased health, loss of burdensome weight and a new sense of self.

Of course the obstacles ahead are the same faced by millions of overweight Americans. The road ahead is well documented. I have done this before—twice I lost over 100 pounds—only to regain it. I set my face to it. I’ll fix a big pot of vegetable soup, fill a glass of water and hop on my stationary bike. Later I will write about it.

I am hoping the Living a Better Story seminar (www.donmilleris.com/conference) will be a launching place—a catalyst to the momentum to begin my story with clarity. In the way writing this piece has been motivating and empowering; I expect the seminar to be exponentially more so.

This is how it went:
We were all just hangin out in the kitchen eating something (probably delicious cereal) and Emily jokingly wrote her silly little twirly signature on my shin. For some odd reason my leg was conveniently propped up on the counter top. And there it was, in blue ink, Emily's name looking like a tat.

I wore cropped pants to work and then a skirt later that day. People saw it, I'm sure. I didn't mind. After work Emily asked me to go to our friend who is a hair dresser to get her hair cut... just like me.

We had some sister moments in the car and it was just as we were pulling off 315 at the Ackerman exit that we started talking about her signature on my leg again. "You know, I don't know if I would actually mind it so much. It's kinda cool," I half-joked. And then I thought, I actually wouldn't mind having this as a tattoo. I love my sister. And then it dawned on us:"OOOOO! We could all get a tattoo of the sister's signatures!"

So... we're not quite joking when we say we want your signatures (even if they're illegible or look like a fourth grader's).

Sisters by Emily Ewing

Sisters
by Emily Ewing

Sisters four,
Same laugh, smile, voice
Common memories and blood,
Shared bedrooms and pets,
One God, one faith.
Forever united.

Individuals to say the least,
One determined,
One talented,
One compassionate,
One goofy.
Forever rare.

Each other’s strong crutches,
Hold hands,
Catch tears,
Long calls,
Never question.
Forever loyal.

Undeniably unique,
A doctor,
A singer,
A saint,
A possibility.
Forever independent.

Favorite pastimes together,
Old movies,
Long car rides,
Big dinners,
Sleepovers.
Forever best friends.

Sisters four,
Forever united,
Forever rare,
Forever loyal,
Forever independent,
Forever best friends,
Forever Ewing sisters.

I Miss...I Love

I miss…having everyone home.

I don’t miss…picking up after everyone.

I miss…my dad. I think of him several times every single day.

I miss…being a kid and reading during the day without feeling guilty.

I miss…Katie singing around the house.

I miss…my motivation to lose weight. Not sure where it has gone.

I miss…family dinners.

I don’t miss…cooking them.

I miss…going to church together.

I miss…Cynthia and Katherine–and Becca when she’s not here…and Emily when she spends the night elsewhere. (Pathetic, I know.)

I miss…Myrtle Beach and Hocking Hills. Had some serious fun on those vacations.

Done. I warn you all–if you write one of these “I miss” pieces–it may make you sad-ish.



I love…when we are all together.

I am so satisfied…when the house is clean.

I am so grateful for…my heritage and my godly earthly father.

I am excited…every night to get in bed and read until I get sleepy.

I treasure…knowing that Katherine leads people to the throne of God with her voice.

I take great pleasure in… carrot cake from J. Alexander’s and Homemade brand Coconut Almond Chip ice cream.

I luxuriate…when we can all eat out together and laugh and hang out while we wait.

I love…music that the Holy Spirit uses to move me. (i.e. “How He Loves Us”, Jays of Clay’s “Jesus’ Blood Never Failed Me Yet”, “Revelation Song” by Kari Jobe and Watermark’s “Captivate Us” to name a few)

I love…that we will see Katherine, Cynthia, Josh and John-Paul in a couple of weeks!!

There will be many more family vacations–I will begin to plan them.

There. I feel much better.

Love. You. All.

I miss...

This blog
my sisters
my madre
Papa
being a kid
myrtle beach
being able to eat what ever i wanted as a kid and not gain weight
getting dirty (as a kid) and not feeling weird about it
my small group
having super close girlfriends
writing songs
going out dancing
lovey
weirdly, the cafeteria at Anderson
classes
being in shows
Mexico
my wedding dress
singing a high "C"
reading in the backyard watching squirrels with mom
Driving the Honda Hatchback
playing and being good at lacrosse
playing volleyball
summer camp
VBS
My grandparents
high school football games
Easton
living in c-bus
Nate and Jo
Ayla
Youth Group
The McConnels
Winter Retreat
dating Josh
being ignorant of the evils of frappicinos
sleep overs
Natalie
Liz
Heather
swining on swings
sliding down slides
snow
playing in the rain
watching my mom cook/bake
inside jokes
janders
wading in the creek
making dandelion crowns
when foot races were still fun
being slippy-toed
anticipation of the Lord of the Rings movies
the Dollar theatre
dressing up for halloween
Sims
the grand canyon
the west, in general
caroling
cutting down the christmas tree
jumping on trampolines
instant messenger - AIM
before facebook
before 9/11/01
2-a-days
preparing for a Lax/VB game
sharing a room with my sister
being able to sleep next to my mom when i had a nightmare
piano lessons
the Birthday Song - "hey Katie, it's your birthday..."
picking wild flowers for mom on the side of the road
potato soup
camping
the attainability of childhood dreams

among other things...

Growing up.

Now that I live close to a sister I find myself reminiscing of younger days all of the time. Of vacations, events, food that holds memories, inside jokes, things mom or dad always did. I feel like I am at some kind of turning point in my life where I am some how crossing into real life as an adult and I am not sure I like it...

All at once I am graduated, no longer a student with little responsiblity other than passing the next test... now I am a doctor. Just the sound of it is heavy and laden with responsibility- mainly that of other people's lives. No more carefree living knowing that it is not all that important if you show or don't show because no one is counting on you to carry your weight whether you show up or not is really just more for your own benefit.

On top of that, as if that wasn't enough responsibility I am also getting married. Which seems to come along with all of its own new adult responsibilities.

All of the change is good, but sometimes its just hard to grow up and realize its just a new stage in life that is different but exciting and there's lots to look forward to.

POETRY

TRAVELING

I travel alone.

I keep trying to travel alone.

To be the one who sits in the corner to take it all in as a mysterious loner the one who no one

knows much about but finds slightly interesting because she's alone and she doesn't care.

I'm not her. But I still travel alone.

WHAT I CAN'T SEEM TO FIGURE OUT

And I can't not but cry.

even now.

I'm everything

but

stable.

How could I stabilize?

I like poetry. Maybe these count as poems, maybe they don't. But this one, Seer by Maxamed Zaashi Dhamac "Garriiye", certainly counts. Somali poetry:

‘If a poem is a farm

then how things truly are, that’s water;
the best words for the best thoughts,
that’s how it begins.
Justice is your only compost,
life itself is what you hoe:
just squeeze truth from what happens
and in its own time it will sprout...

‘It’s not sold for coppers,
it’s not for praising the powerful;
to put a price on it, any price,
cheapens it and is forbidden

‘It’s riding bareback on an unbroken horse –
you don’t hobble its heels.
Those who fear for their hides
and won’t ride without a saddle,
those lacking in the craft, can’t get near this:
lies have nothing to do with it.
Poetry is a woman you do not betray,

to abuse her beauty is a sin..."

News from the Home Front

I might be an addict. I at least act like one.

I just spent the last 40 minutes on facebook looking at pictures and videos of family.

I text back and forth with my dad (who does that?) and I call my mom on the way to class and work (hey, a 10 minute walk, that's plenty of time for news from the home front!

Not a day has gone by for several weeks that I haven't mentioned to someone (more than not, my two roommates) that I'll be home in just [x-number] of days.

I love to hear that Dad did okay on his STATs test and the Mom spent hours at the print shop. I like that I'm talking with my friends about our July vacation in October and that I often say, "Me and my sisters listened to this on our road trip to Nashville" with enthusiasm. I'm glad that Kat and Josh have started a new Bible study, that Kara's gotten so many residency interviews, and that Emily has goofy friends filling her room with phonebook pages. Any photos of Dolly just light up my face.

You see, I'll be home in just a few days and the suspense is teasing me. I measure my tasks against, "Oh, I'll be home soon, so don't worry about it," or, "If I can just make it til Thursday..." Like an addict, these sort of rationalizations in the face of my addiction don't make much sense. But as of now, I can't help it. I love these people.

Soon enough I'll get my bi-monthly fix, I guess, and I may return to normal. We'll see.

It has been far too long since any of us has posted here. It is 2 a.m. and I just finished reading ALL the posts from the beginning. I was missing the gathered group. My heart is full of love for you all. My favorite "thing" of all time is family. Nothing beats the comfort and familiarity of being with people you don't have to impress, you love and you can laugh with.

Bustling together to prepare for a Thanksgiving meal, lining up in red with wings and chili to watch the Buckeyes or bunching up on couches to read the Christmas story and then open gifts are all quintessential pictures of the "fullness of life" in the here and now. I know that someday every tear will be dried and all sickness healed - but in the meantime - it doesn't get any better than family en masse.

Inherited?

I am not sure if this is true or if the bible says anything at all remotely close to the statement I am about to make, but I feel like one of my spiritual gifts I inherited from my mother. Don’t get me wrong, I know that I was given these gifts from Holy Spirit, but sometimes I wonder if Holy Spirit gives families similar gifts. I may be totally off base, but I feel like I received the gift and the heart of intercessor because of my mom.

Growing up I feel like there were hundreds of times I would come home from school, or wake up on a lazy Saturday morning/afternoon to find my mom sitting in her “devotional” spot. (Far left side of the couch, under a lamp, next to a side table, bible open, glasses on, coffee steaming). My mom not only LOVES the word of God, but she LOVES praying for her family. I know she carries a photo of all of us in her Bible and moves along the picture praying over each of our lives. I fully believe it is partly due to my mom’s dedication, consistency, and “ferocious” prayers that I made it to where I am today. Heck, it’s due to those prayers that I made it out of my teenage years alive…seriously.

I believe that the prayers of the saints move things that wouldn’t have moved had they not prayed. Marriages stay together, depression is broken, bodies are healed, minds are renewed, and hearts are restored. My mom did that/does that for all of us. She is gluing everything together with her prayers. She is sealing the metaphorical seal in the heavenly realms of our destinies and moving mountains through her warrior intercession.

Now that I am on the other side of my parents raising me and I am carving out my own path and walk with the Lord, I feel the spirit of an intercessor growing inside of me. Ministry time at church/small group has become one of my favorite parts of the week and some of my most intimate moments with the Lord are when I am in prayer for others. Be it someone standing right in front of me, our country, our president, my family, etc. the Lord continues to give me the words to pray and draw me deeper into his chamber and his arms. And even if she didn’t exactly give me the gift her self, she gave me the gift of her example and I am thankful.

I'm glad she's ferocious

You know that feeling?
The feeling when your soul starts to stretch toward the light of God in the way the leaves of the green plants literally move with sunlight?
The feeling that there's a breeze ever so gently encouraging the steps your tired feet take toward God, be they ever so small?
The feeling which leaves you sorrowful at your separation from real relationship with Jesus yet gives you slight hope for each effort made to mend it?
That's a feeling of a prayer prayed for you.

Thanks for being ferocious, Ma. I need you to be just that. So that I can live into and beyond that feeling.

Bring on the connection: in response to "Online Chatting"

This whole connection through the internet thing is interesting to me. I'm not exactly sure how I feel because I really do value that person-to-person contact, but, like you said, some contact seems to be better than none. I like knowing what my hallway and classroom buddies are doing, and that quick connection with the occaisional coffee-date friend is nice.

My real dilemma is this: were we made to keep contact with those people we wouldn't normally have kept in contact with? Is it necessary to keep up on the little things? Are we created to have such stretched relational capacities? Has God blessed us with this complete (?) connect-ability, or has the Adversary confused us?

I don't think there are easy answers to any of the above questions and I'm trying to figure out how to balance answering them and living within them.

What I know I do love, however, is the accessibility the internet gives me to those I definitely should be connected to--like my family. Thus, I uphold the facebooking, emailing, texting, and chatting with the ones I do long to see, touch, smell, know. So, when it comes to you all, my lovely family, bring on the connection!

Life's Work, Prayer and Conviction

My life’s work has been the raising of you girls. There may be something else coming, I’m not certain. But generally I have found it a satisfying and enjoyable lifework. As you have grown up it has become even more full of pleasure and joy because of the hours I have to myself. I was always one to enjoy my own company. And yet, I get lonely and look forward to the end of each day and Friday evenings when I’ll have my family around me. But for me to have hours and hours alone—in solitude, was a great balm to my soul. I spent much of that time in everyday activities: cleaning, laundry, cooking, etc. but many hours were spent with God in prayer and Bible study. Never did I take that time for granted.

The time I spend in prayer for each of you is significant in a real way to your lives. When I pray for you—it’s like I’m with you—making a difference in your life. There is a special understanding and affection cultivated in prayer that comes by no other means of expression. A blessing is extended that changes things and brings protection and wisdom and goodness into your life. The Spirit mysteriously honors such requests with power and action.

I have great regard for the grownup people you girls have become. I could not love you more. I have watched every moment of your lives when you were still at home and follow still as much as I can now with facebook, texting, emails and the occasional phone call. The courage and passion I held to through the years deciding to stay at home and raise my own children—really raise them—looks awkward and provincial to people now. I stand up tall and declare: It was not a mistake. And God has honored the choice and we have suffered very little materially for it. We have held things loosely and learned not to miss the vacations we didn’t get to take and the new cars we didn’t drive. I would do it all again. I am ferocious about this.

Online Chating

As nerdy as it may sound, I love chatting online. This love started back when I was 15 and first became introduced to the internet. I quickly became engrossed in Instant Messenger (IM). Before IM I would spend 2-3 hours on the phone with friends till my ears were to hot to stand holding the phone anymore. Once IM came out my little 15 year old life changed. I could be talking to a friend on the phone and simultaneously talking to 3 or 4 friends on IM. It was brilliant. I loved coming home from school and logging on to hear that little bleep noise that means you have a message.

Pretty quickly I realized that I could type to more friends online if I lost the phone...So I stopped talking and began typing. Who knows what about. Random stuff. Sending each other smiley faces and hearts probably...Actually I don't know when the face icon came around so maybe I wasn't doing that from the begining... :)

When I was a sophmore in Highschool I wanted to take a typing class because I knew it would be an easy "A." IM gave me my keyboarding education. I would be talking to 10-15 people all at once telling them all stories and trying to keep up. Today I can type like 65 wpm consistently. Impressive I know.

Somewhere along the line IM died. I am not 100% sure but I think it is once facebook (FB) came out. IM turned into away messages and idle usernames. It became a ghost town. I think I was a spohmore in College before it really faded away. I love stalking people FB, but I am not gunna lie...I missed chatting with friends.

Recently, I switched e-mail address to gmail and discovered g-chat. It's good, but you can only chat with other people who have e-mail address with gmail. THEN, FB came out with Facebook Chat. It's wonderful. I am not on it to often but, everynow and then I will get to catch up with someone who I haven't spoke to in a really long time. Even though it isn't as personal as a phone call it get's the "stay-in-contact" job done.

Maybe I am being to impersonal and distant, but honestly I probably wouldn't ever talk on the phone to some of my friends that I FB chat with so I say it's better to type than to never talk. I am part of "generation y" what do you want from me?

True or false...i googled what generation I am in. Generation y aka The Net Generation, Millennials, Echo Boomers, and iGeneration.